The Process

For the second time around and for the same person, I've been in total distress like this. However, now I have to make a final decision. I just really have to let go of him. Even though it so throbbing but I just have to. It's also for my own sake anyway. I have to get up and realize that I have to live my life in a different way right now. I surely do love him but if I slowly lose myself for loving him then I have to give up and think of myself now.This process of moving on will be so much painful but what can I just do? if I'd continue this then I might wake up one day feeling only the throbbing pain and pain alone instead of love. 

I know somewhere somehow God has made a plan for me. If me and this guy didn't made it then someone out there might come and give the purest love I could get. A love that is unconditional and happy. A love that would give me pain but would cover me with all the happiness in the world. Because really Love comes together with Pain. I would now be willing to embrace pain if I know that me and my partner will hold on together. 

Sometimes, I know that I have this "attitude" of giving up and breaking up with someone but I am really just giving that someone an opportunity to prove to me how much he loves me. How much he would take risk just to win me back, because I believe that it takes too much emotion and effort for a guy to prove that he really loves a girl. 

I love him so much but I think I really have to let go now. Now, it's final and I think irrevocable. Hmmmnn.. If only he would make a move and let me feel that I am loved then I'd surely give him chance. A chance not only to win me back but a chance that will continue until all tomorrow's ends. 

THE END

I kept thinking .............

Well, as I was thinking about this all day long, I've come to realized that I should give a chance. Maybe this time, it would be another way around. However, if this given chance would still be useless and would still continue to hurt me, then, I think it would be time to stop the martyrdom.

Even how much you value the person, even how much affection you have for him/her, when we burst and explode it would be the end of everything.

I just hope they will not waste the chances that we're giving because there might come a time that regrets instead of happiness will take over unto them.

I've also come to realized that it's better not to deeply hold and rely to the affection you're feeling to someone, it's better to not give our all 100% love so that from the moment that an ending will take its place, it would not be that throbbing for us to let go.  

We should know how to handle things around us. We should not let it ruin our future plans, and we should not let those things govern us. Let yourself and God govern each and every step and decisions we make.

Don't just rely to other people because they might be a temporary persons in our life. They ought to teach us lesson and at the same time, hurt us. Someday, those temporary people in our life will go, leaving us unattended with memories so sweet. Memories that will keep hunting us 'till the midst of letting go takes place.

Let us learn from our mistake. We can give chances but if you think it's enough, it's enough! Let us say what we mean, and mean it! Let not others think that we're very easy, and we're not sticking into our own words. Respect them, and they will respect you back. As the saying goes,

"Do unto others what you want others do unto you..."