You Are Worth Waiting For

"You Are Worth Waiting For"

A Valentine Symposium 

February 14, 2012

Everyone is in aghast upon celebrating this month's highlight, the Valentine's Day. However, what is really the essence of celebrating this kind of occasion? This is not just about the romantic love for boyfriend-girlfriend relationships but it's also about the love for our self. We are precious and we do not just put it in our minds but have it acted out. We put it into life. Something that is being waited is valuable, great, and wonderful.  We are worth waiting for by the truth that Jesus Christ died for us. His amazing love let us live at this very moment. We are even worth dying! So, why waste the time on the wrong ones when you can live wonderfully and beautifully forever with the right one that God has given for you? God wants the best for us. All we just have to do is to TRUST and WAIT... ♥

March 26, 2011, Saturday, around 7:30 pm

How could I forget this date. It was a very memorable day for me. For a long time of not communicating with each other that much, he asked me to hang out with him on the mall. He bought snacks for me and we went roaming around the mall, window shopping, and whatever!
We went to the arcade area (World of Fun) and we play video car racing and also basketball. I am very happy during that time. 
We also went to different stores and had window shopping. He also tried fitting shirts while I choose every shirt he will try. I judged about his outfit, what's best for him, and laugh about it after..
We also went to a department store where various chippy things are there. He was looking for a summer outfit but we found none. He saw a stool full of for sale tiny shoes for babies and he suggested to buy a pair of it for us two. I was a bit ''kilig'' about it. The saleslady then walk towards us and asked what size is the feet of our baby! lol. The lady thought we're married couple shopping for the outfit of our baby. It was funny though! Then, we bought a pair of those cutie little shoes and I sewed a twine so that we could have it as key chain.
Right then, when we're about to go, we hiked from LimKetkai mall until MUST but we still want to spend longer time with each other that's why we walked from MUST until Gaisano where the passenger van I am riding to home. However, when we reached Gaisano, it's past 9pm already so there were already no van in the alley. We waited there for about 20 minutes and we decided after for me to just ride on a jeep. So, we hiked again from Gaisano until MOGCHS where I got to ride on a jeep. We do spend a longer time that night but it seemed so short for me. I'm very happy that time and it was really memorable day for me. I realized how much I missed him and loved him. However, whatever good things happened, I still should have be cautious. :)

The Sullenness of Goodbye

You held my hands

but I let go

And I just don't know

Maybe I just can't

Maybe I have to give up

Maybe it's "time's up!"

The pain had brought me here

So just don't you dare

Blaming me for giving up

Feeling that it's my fault

Not realizing your worth

Ask, do you really have that worth?

You might wonder why

But it's time to say goodbye

I want happiness someday

By not letting this feeling stay

The reason of giving up is you

I know you know you do

You're not dumb enough

Are you?

The Process

For the second time around and for the same person, I've been in total distress like this. However, now I have to make a final decision. I just really have to let go of him. Even though it so throbbing but I just have to. It's also for my own sake anyway. I have to get up and realize that I have to live my life in a different way right now. I surely do love him but if I slowly lose myself for loving him then I have to give up and think of myself now.This process of moving on will be so much painful but what can I just do? if I'd continue this then I might wake up one day feeling only the throbbing pain and pain alone instead of love. 

I know somewhere somehow God has made a plan for me. If me and this guy didn't made it then someone out there might come and give the purest love I could get. A love that is unconditional and happy. A love that would give me pain but would cover me with all the happiness in the world. Because really Love comes together with Pain. I would now be willing to embrace pain if I know that me and my partner will hold on together. 

Sometimes, I know that I have this "attitude" of giving up and breaking up with someone but I am really just giving that someone an opportunity to prove to me how much he loves me. How much he would take risk just to win me back, because I believe that it takes too much emotion and effort for a guy to prove that he really loves a girl. 

I love him so much but I think I really have to let go now. Now, it's final and I think irrevocable. Hmmmnn.. If only he would make a move and let me feel that I am loved then I'd surely give him chance. A chance not only to win me back but a chance that will continue until all tomorrow's ends. 

THE END

Reminiscent

I remember the days

When it was you and me

We were so happy

Hidden feelings slowly came out

Of its pearly shell made out of love.

Glittering lights shown in my eyes

If I have you in my sight

The bumping feeling of my thumping heart

We grasp some words to start.

Sending sweet messages,

Saving them in the drafts

Reading them all over

And I feel a full blast.

Everytime I hear “You’re mine”

It makes me feel cloud nine

Thank you for the pouring love I get

If only it’s us, my mate.

This is just one of my poem composition.. I've come after this poem when I was going to school. I was still in the passenger seat when I noticed two teens, highschool, a male and a female. It seemed like they are still shy with each other but I can see their sweetness and affection between each other. And it had let me remember of my past .....

A Wish for You and Me

Every so often we had misunderstandings, quarrels, and other bothering things happening in us. However, I hope that we still continue to hang on with each other. I know that there are times when giving up seemed to be next in line but let's just talk, and figure how to fix things out. 

It's quite normal in a relationship to face challenges but it's up with the people on how they will manage it. Let's not give chances for challenges to beat us in our way, let's face it with all our might, hand in hand, and with the grace of God.

Isn't it nice to hear that couple still stand together even the test of time? Good relationships in the world are not those with always happy happenings but those who have been molded  by challenges and trials but still they are together, not giving up. 

Let us also be sensitive enough of the feelings of our partner. If you think you're doing is not proper anymore or would create a doubt then better not do it because it might create a disaster.

Well, it's so okay in a relationship to still have in contact with other friends even with an opposite sex, but still be careful. In a couple, the relationship to lasts is to trust each other, so never ever try to break it.Well, there will be limitations in terms of the range of interaction and closeness.

The feeling of being in love is such a wonderful thing on earth! Let's not waste it by having so much doubts. But of course, in order to have  no doubt, show that you can be trusted. It's just a matter of give and take.

^.^

P.S

I wish that our connection from

each other would last. Let's

avoid bitterness and pain. 

Trustworthiness

Trust is very important in a relationship. When I say relationship, it comprises each and everyone of us. The unity and peacefulness signifies the trust that is imposed in that relationship. We get hurt and feel so much pain when we found out that somebody has lied to us or has broken the trust we have give to them. That is why it’s really very important to take care of that reliance because once it’s gone; it would be hard to gain it back.

                        I know for sure when I say “relationship”, some of you might be generally assumed about a boyfriend-girlfriend relationship but it’s not only about that. It’s a relationship of everybody whether a friend, family, country, lover, and a relationship of ourselves. It encompasses a connection between two or more people.

                        For sure a lot of us have experienced being betrayed, lied, took for granted by somebody who means a lot to us. It is indeed very painful. In a sudden, we got to look at the blank wall while reminiscing the joyful moments with that person. In a while, we come to think of why they ever hurt our feelings. We became transparent by what we feel and we ca also be just so naïve, showing only the façade of us to cover the hurt feelings we have inside. We suddenly became so disorganized and our mind is in chaos. When we’re depressed, some of us pour all the despair we’re going trough by eating that’s why we gained so much weight and became obese. Or we became too melancholic and forgot to eat and became anorexic. But kidding aside, even how much we want to forget the pain, it will just become an echoing voice that keeps coming back our mind and that we just can’t keep it from shutting up. We cry and became so regretful.

                        Even how much that person wants to claim our trust back, we just can’t give it back immediately. We may forgive them but it’s actually very different unlike before. We wanted to trust them but we just can’t help ourselves from having some doubt upon them. Trusting them again would be so hard to do. We don’t want to get hurt again that’s why we’ve became very careful.

                        If everyone knows how to keep a good relationship the there would be no quarrels, chaotic minds trembling and leveling up their pride. Life would be worth living, smiles would be very visible to everybody, and love can be felt really..

I kept thinking .............

Well, as I was thinking about this all day long, I've come to realized that I should give a chance. Maybe this time, it would be another way around. However, if this given chance would still be useless and would still continue to hurt me, then, I think it would be time to stop the martyrdom.

Even how much you value the person, even how much affection you have for him/her, when we burst and explode it would be the end of everything.

I just hope they will not waste the chances that we're giving because there might come a time that regrets instead of happiness will take over unto them.

I've also come to realized that it's better not to deeply hold and rely to the affection you're feeling to someone, it's better to not give our all 100% love so that from the moment that an ending will take its place, it would not be that throbbing for us to let go.  

We should know how to handle things around us. We should not let it ruin our future plans, and we should not let those things govern us. Let yourself and God govern each and every step and decisions we make.

Don't just rely to other people because they might be a temporary persons in our life. They ought to teach us lesson and at the same time, hurt us. Someday, those temporary people in our life will go, leaving us unattended with memories so sweet. Memories that will keep hunting us 'till the midst of letting go takes place.

Let us learn from our mistake. We can give chances but if you think it's enough, it's enough! Let us say what we mean, and mean it! Let not others think that we're very easy, and we're not sticking into our own words. Respect them, and they will respect you back. As the saying goes,

"Do unto others what you want others do unto you..."